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Devon Darconin ([personal profile] the4united) wrote in [community profile] hugtopia2022-03-09 09:27 pm
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[Yes, Devon is still moping and depressed about what happened two months ago when his magic basically got hijacked and ended up freezing everyone.  His magic has never run wild like that before, and even though it wasn't truly his magic he still feels at fault.]

How do you forgive yourself for doing something... bad?  Even when you didn't mean for it to end up bad.  In fact, it may not have even been totally your fault, but the hurt was still possible because of something you did.  

[Does that even make sense?  He hopes it does.]


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daikonrose: (184)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-03-21 02:01 am (UTC)(link)
[ Though the memory did stir up some ire, she actually isn't angry so much as shocked. She wouldn't have thought that was even on the table! ]

To think all the weird things that happen here could actually be traced back to our individual actions... What if there are other cases like this? And you couldn't predict it happening at all?? --I could be next!!!
ghoulserrand: (Erm)

[personal profile] ghoulserrand 2022-03-22 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
... I think maybe you should work on figuring that out before feeling guilty. If you don't even know if you did it, you can't say it's your fault.
the4united: (Default)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-03-26 11:42 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm much more comfortable outside of the city walls.

[That's just his opinion though.]

There are always weird things going on here.
the4united: (looking up)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-03-26 11:43 pm (UTC)(link)
It couldn't have happened without what I did though. What I created was then used by someone else.
the4united: (looking up)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-03-26 11:45 pm (UTC)(link)
The magic here is certainly weird enough. It's not even something I can trace or follow the rules of, and I've had experience with a lot of different forms of magic.
daikonrose: (278)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-03-27 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
If even a wizard like you can't keep track of it, there's really no hope for the rest of us...! I didn't realize I was walking such a dangerous line every time I made something!
ghoulserrand: (Grunge)

[personal profile] ghoulserrand 2022-03-28 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
That leaves a lot of room for tangential blaming. What exactly did you do?
relictus: (25)

[personal profile] relictus 2022-03-28 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
...Have you been outside the walls? What sort of weird things?

[Aside from what he's seen so far, but then, his own world would be considered pretty weird by some.]
the4united: (oh shit)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-04 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Oh. OOOOHHH. I never thought of it that way! I just thought I was impacted because mine were made with magic.
the4united: (oh shit)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-04 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
Um... created the ice sculptures that suddenly came alive and started freezing people later on.
the4united: (smile)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-04 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
Just to the green space. I spend most of my time out there.

I've considered going farther, but since there's now area outside the city I don't have much reason to.
daikonrose: (113)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-04-05 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah... [ She heaves a breath, coming back down to earth a bit. ] Right, maybe that's the case. It would make sense if it has to be something special to start with, before weird things can happen. That still puts a lot of people here at risk of doing it, but maybe it's not everyone.
the4united: (looking up)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-12 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
It's hard to say what causes it really. I feel like weird stuff happens here all the time, and most of the time it's with no real rhyme or reason.
ghoulserrand: (Grunge)

[personal profile] ghoulserrand 2022-04-13 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
...

Well, that's something.

But, I don't think that it's necessarily your fault the sculptures came to life... unless you did that too?
daikonrose: (174)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-04-15 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
It's true... It's pretty rare that the strange things that happen here can be traced back to one person's actions. Maybe it just comes down to bad luck.
the4united: (say what?)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-20 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
No! I definitely didn't do that! I mean, I could I guess, but definitely not that many or that wide spread.
the4united: (looking up)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-20 12:23 am (UTC)(link)
Bad luck just seems... to vague and improbable.
daikonrose: (40)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-04-21 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
What... I wonder what it's like to go through life thinking bad luck is unlikely.
the4united: (trying not to laugh)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-21 11:10 am (UTC)(link)
[Devon laughs, his face actually lighting up for the first time in a while]

No, no! It’s not that I don’t think bad luck exists! That definitely does! It’s just not the right explanation in this case. Bad luck is managing to steal a loaf of bread when you’re starving and then tripping and watching it fall in a puddle or waiting quietly for ages for the fish to come out only to sneeze at the last minute. The weird things that happen here feel much more… precise and intentional for them to be bad luck.
ghoulserrand: (Grunge)

[personal profile] ghoulserrand 2022-04-22 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
Then you didn't do it! Not your fault! Problem solved.
the4united: (say what?)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-23 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
[There's dead silence for a very long period of time before Devon finally speaks.]

You... you think so?

[He makes it sound so... easy. Devon never thought he'd be forgiven that easily!]
daikonrose: (168)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-04-23 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Being the one person out of all of us to make something unexpected and dangerous happen sounds a lot like bad luck to me, though. It would be one thing if you were intently wishing and willing for bad things to happen, but that doesn't sound like the case.
the4united: (looking up)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-25 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
I don't think I'm the only one, though I might be the only one who can actually trace a decision I made back to the cause of an event. Generally I think there's too many crazy things happening here to call any one of them bad luck. It's too... planned.
daikonrose: (150)

[personal profile] daikonrose 2022-04-29 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
Isn't getting chosen by the gods for something bad a form of bad luck in itself, though? Since that would naturally be all tangled up in things like fate, divine intervention, and so on. Bad luck on a grand scale, you know?
the4united: (umm)

[personal profile] the4united 2022-04-30 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
Ah... that's a good point. That's a pretty grand scale though.
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